The Kreilaus Khronikles

Friday, July 20, 2012

July 20th in my life

This started out as a FB status update, but got way too long pretty quickly, so it's going on here now! Yay!

Jon and I have been dating for 5 years today. Sometimes it seems crazy that it's been that long and other times it seems crazy that it's "only" been that long. After realizing today is my 19th anniversary of pierced ears, 5 years doesn't seem that long...haha. Thank you for singing my praises and forgiving my shortcomings. I'd say I love you very much, but you hate that because love does not vary by degrees - you either love someone or you don't. So, I'll go ahead and state the obvious - I love you. I'm pretty good at writing long, sappy, heart-warming letters, but after time they become white noise. For this reason, I stop now.

Big hug. Big kiss.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Stories

When I read other blogs, I like to read stories. Honest, genuine glimpses into life as viewed by another. I want to write more stories like that, but I feel like I have a few monumental posts, and a lot of tidbit posts that I feel are sloppy. I don't want that. I just finished reading a blog of someone I don't know and my face hurts from smiling the whole time. I almost teared up at the heartfelt account of a loving moment in her life. I want a stranger to be able to do that with my blog. I don't want my friends to read it just to make sure they aren't missing something important in my life, I want to be inspirational.

Inspirational to whom, you may ask (or maybe that's just me asking)...I don't know what word to use. -Normal people? What is normal, though? -Everybody? I really doubt a kid with gun in hand is gonna put it down after seeing pictures of flowers at my house.

Perhaps my target audience is the mind-made-up person. Is that stupid? Is that too broad? Is it too much to ask the wife that loves her husband to fall in love with him all over again by loving his faults as much as his accomplishments? Is it too much to ask the person who loathes grammar to learn the difference between there/their/they're so their job application makes clear that they're looking for their next job at the company over there? (By the way, if you loathe grammar, you should probably tread lightly around me...ha) Is it too much to ask that you see my plants around the house and realize you could also do them?

I want to blog about change and settlement because I feel that is what life is about. Life is constantly changing and so are people. Yet we as people are not built to change everything in the world every single day, so life is also about feeling settled. These are the 2 things that govern my life, and I know I'm not the only one. I guess I aspire to be the beacon of light to show some soul(s) what they are searching for, if the shoe fits.

Too much? Too weird? Now I'm feeling all awkward and stuff saying that I basically want to be a role model. Who says stuff like that? I guess this weirdo right here.

Snoring

Further solidifying my spot in utter weirdness, I like the sound of snoring. It's soothing. Just like the sound of trains (I lived one block away from the tracks growing up, so it was embrace it or go insane.) for me. Further introduction to my sleeping habits: I cannot sleep in utter silence. It is maddening to me. I usually sleep with at least one fan on and as many as 3. With that being said, I feel somewhat honored when I hear snoring. To me it signifies a deep trust. You wouldn't sleep around your enemies. You wouldn't even take a moment to "rest your eyes" knowing the office snitch could stumble by at any time. But, when you're at home/with those you trust, there are no emotional walls. You are at your most vulnerable. And that's why I like snoring. To be trusted with someone's vulnerability for hours on end is quite a responsibility. Now I feel silly for writing this, but I really feel this way, so I'm leaving it.