Snoring

Further solidifying my spot in utter weirdness, I like the sound of snoring.  It's soothing.  Just like the sound of trains (I lived one block away from the tracks growing up, so it was embrace it or go insane.) for me.  Further introduction to my sleeping habits: I cannot sleep in utter silence.  It is maddening to me.  I usually sleep with at least one fan on and as many as 3.  With that being said, I feel somewhat honored when I hear snoring.  To me it signifies a deep trust.  You wouldn't sleep around your enemies.  You wouldn't even take a moment to "rest your eyes" knowing the office snitch could stumble by at any time.  But, when you're at home/with those you trust, there are no emotional walls.  You are at your most vulnerable.  And that's why I like snoring.  To be trusted with someone's vulnerability for hours on end is quite a responsibility.  Now I feel silly for writing this, but I really feel this way, so I'm leaving it.

Snapshots of Our Busy Lives

Where I spend 8 hours each day.

Some sort of storm tracking truck

Phaux was humiliated by a bird.

Sylvester the Cat's head fell off.

My birthday at OU! (Cat card not pictured)

My birthday at Saied's!  (Another cat card, oddly enough...)

Children playing near the street at midnight at Jack in the Box.

Danielle's birthday!  Her favorite color is purple, by the way!

My car clock is lazy now...telling me 'bout what time it is.

One of these is mine.  $0 if you guess which one.

Siegi's "medium-sized" beer

Lamborghini in Tulsa...shut your mouth!

That crazy Astoria - half bobcat/half regular cat

Danielle has mad baking skills and was still badmouthing this cake....(Koo Koo!)

Phaux LOVES his new toy.

Sleeping with one eye open...

Dad gave us a loveseat...more seating!  Whoa!

New TV stand.  It's much prettier in person....and in better light....

T.HANKS for checking out the blog!

I'm not gonna apologize for not blogging all that often.  I'm living my life!

Yard pictures!

I haven't really shared these, so for all you flower lovers - enjoy!

Planting my OU seeds!

From seeds...

To this!

I can't believe all of these are in our yard.  SO PRETTY!

My Little Diddy At Work

Please ignore all typos as they were not mine. And I would have just put the link, but it doesn't seem to work outside of OU. Me, in a nutshell:



It'sa me! (Mario voice)



Imperfection

I hate that I continually fail at life, but all I can do is keep trying.  I often re-evaluate my life and see what changes need to happen.  That part is easy.  The actual change is the hard part.  I got a strange motivation that I wasn't looking for this morning at work.  On an evaluation, a trainer asked his class, "What will you do with the time you have been given?"  Most evaluation responses are job focused and rather short, so the sheer length of this one in particular caught my eye.  Then I read it: "I will help others, be the best husband and father I can be, and also have faith in my Lord.  I will learn from my struggles and others, and I will encourage myself and others to pray every day.  Learning my purpose is still ongoing, but I'm willing to take this time I have and listen, understand, and help."  I'm not the only person in the world that keeps failing and having to regroup.  Thank goodness.  I was so wrapped up in failing that I forgot what the "solution" would be - perfection.  If only I never screwed up again...that would be cool.  I needed a reminder today that I'm just human - wasn't sure if anybody else needed that reminder, too, so here it is, just in case.

Setting smaller, more attainable goals is my new goal.